So, most of you think that I am in the Dominican Republic right now. Well, nope. I am still at home in Ohio. I am typing on my new laptop that was purchased and shipped just for my trip.
In my last post I explained the craziness of the past few weeks. Well, nothing compared to last Thursday night-Friday night...less than 24 hours. Within this time, I bought my ticket (and wrote about it in my previous blog), got offered a job in Akron, got called for a first interview around home, and called for a second interview in Indiana. Needless to say, I was asking the Lord, "WHAT!?!??!?!?" I had no idea what He was trying to say to me and was so confused. I knew that this was no coincidence though. Even in the midst of total confusion and being completely overwhelmed, I stopped and thanked God that He is so present. There was not a doubt in my heart that He was trying to tell me something. So, I spent hours trying to listen for His voice and sort out all of these new and old options. At the end of the night I knew I wasn't going to take the job in Akron and still needed to pray about the DR now. Since that night I started to really question my decision. Was this really where God wanted me or was this more about my heart and being willing? The story of Abraham and Isaac came to my mind. The Lord didn't really want Abraham to kill his son, he just wanted to know that He had all of his heart. After much prayer I feel that this is similar to my situation. I was willing to go...I bought my ticket! However, I think that the Lord was showing me again that this isn't the right time...but He knows my heart is ready. It has been clear to me...again...that I am to use teaching in some type of ministry. Being overseas in the near future is a really good possibility. My heart is still the same.
So now what? I am back to searching for a job again. I thought that this was over since on Friday I had two offers. But again the Lord says, "wait." I know that the Lord is going to provide in some way. He has already made that clear! I am praising Him for speaking to me and for loving me so much that He has made a perfect plan for my life. I am a lucky girl! :)
